Life at Home


One never knows what life will throw at them. It’s a mixed bag of happy, sad, anger and everything in between. So, how does one cope? I don’t know the answer to that as I have demons in my own closet. But what I do know is that some of the times in our lives are worst than anything a demon could throw at you.

Battle one. The teenage daughter who is never happy about anything. I swear the teen years are much harder on the parent than the child. Mine, specifically goes from happy to depression in an instant. Nothing I say or do is good enough as there is always a comeback. So, the question is, how do I as the parent survive these years?

My husband believes in a strict upbringing as that is how he was raised and raised his own. Can I say that the method does not work, and my proof is current family. So, I ride the tidal wave of being the parent of a teenager. I can only wish and pray that teens today get over themselves and their materialistic goods and realize that life is about so much more than whining and sighing heavily because parents don’t want to buy a 20 dollar make up brush.

Battle two. My own mother. I love her as she is my mother, however, she is a dry drunk and is constantly upset that I may or may not be mad because I don’t share the details of my life with her as if we were friends. On top of that, she has her own opinions of how family should be and act. News Flash! Not all families are created equal and she is on my shit list because the one thing she has not learned is that someone’s size and looks should not be made fun of or constantly criticized by the one entity that is supposed to love and accept. An “oopsie” done numerous times over is not an acceptable excuse for “I was merely trying to keep the peace and make conversation”. There I said it. My own family is on my shit list.

These two are probably my most prevalent battles, excluding my own demons. So what does one do when the places and people they would go to for help are the same ones the help is needed for? I suppose only time will tell.

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