Uncensored Heart

We’re in a world so busy People running everywhere. Forever looking at our watches Our minds racing with cares. We never see that lonely man Sitting on the street. We don’t even notice that hungry lady Struggling in the heat. Children so needy Filled with despair. An old grandma rocking sadly And no one cares. We must remember Jesus left us with a plea… “Ye did unto the least of these my brethren, ye did it unto me.” So what about you? What about me? What about the lonely man Sitting on the street? Will you reach out Without a shadow of doubt? Will you love the least of these And fulfill Jesus’ plea? A smile for the lonely man sitting on the street. A bit of food for the hungry lady struggling in the heat. A hug for the children so full of despair. A cheery voice for the old Grandma in the rocking chair. This seems so simple Such an easy thing to do. Let’s reach out for the least of these As Christ did for you.

Being with you everyday makes my love for you grow even stronger. My love grows even stronger every time I'm around you. So strong that if my love for you was a string it would be double knotted. My heart pounds more than a clock ticks faster than a plane taking off. I feel as though my heart wants to pound out of my chest pull out a white flag and surrender itself to you. You are like my pollen to my flower without you I couldn't grow. You are like the sunlight of my day without you I couldn't see. You are the heart of my body without you I couldn't live.

My favorite band...read the words and think with your hearts!! I kept the right ones out And let the wrong ones in Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins There were times in my life When I was goin' insane Tryin' to walk through The pain When I lost my grip And I hit the floor Yeah,I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door I was so sick and tired Of livin' a lie I was wishin that I Would die It's Amazing With the blink of an eye you finally see the light It's Amazing When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright It's Amazing And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation And how high can you fly with broken wings? Life's a journey not a destination And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings You have to learn to crawl Before you learn to walk But I just couldn't listen to all that righteous talk, oh yeah I was o...

The complexity of romance and love. Love is so easy when one is young. It comes in puppy forms of all kinds and wraps us in complete joyous harmony. Why can we not be the same in adulthood? Sigh. It should be simple and clear. Unfortunately, the wretched organ is the most complex of all and the most stubborn.   So, as you all may remember I had to come to terms with my own heart and brain in fight mode.   It was definitely a very hard battle. I am a stubborn woman and my will is almost always unbreakable. Titanium wall has gone down. It went boom. I have come to terms with the fact I am for all intensive purposes ass over teacups in love. That is not a romantic way of putting it, but certainly blunt and to the point.   It dawned on me at one point that I was in love beyond reason and sanity. I say this because in some ways I have no right to love this man. It’s complicated for various reasons and I have battled guilt and anger at myself for feeling the way that I d...

Seek and you shall find. That is probably one of the greatest proverbs ever. How many of us truly know what exactly that means. Not many I would wager. I’ll use myself as the perfect example in this. I’ve read it many times, nodded my head like I had a clue as to what that actually means.   So today, I sat and thought about it. I am reading a book which really has me thinking a lot deeper than I am comfortable with. After all, staring at myself in the mirror and facing the deep demons inside is enough. Wrong. Lesson number 2, it is an ongoing process.   Our brains, hearts and spirits operate much like a pulley system. Crap out and crap back in. We examine once, pat ourselves on the back and assume we have accomplished betterment. Slow down and think again. Back to my original “seek and you shall find” proverb, which is much like the ramblings I just spewed. We are seeking constantly and finding rarely. The reason we find so rarely is simple…..we seek the wrong things an...

The wall that is me. Hello, nice to meet you. Yes, I am a wall. I have built a very nice sturdy titanium wall around me and no one gets in. Yes that’s right, no one including the man that I love beyond all reason. So, what does one do when one is in refusal to open up and get past that wall. I am perfectly comfortable with where I am and where I am willing to go. I used to have mere bricks, concrete that over the years has been broken down. Once I was open and raw and have come out from behind the wall I have hit nothing but sorrow and/or fear. Hence, my second reconstruction is titanium. Now, my life has changed drastically since the wall was constructed. I have moved to a new state, made changes to my personal life and even changed jobs, all in an effort to not have to face the past. Although I do see the past as a learning experience and do not necessarily live in it, as we all know the past has a strong impact on what choices we make in the future. For example, those that ha...