Seek and you shll find


Seek and you shall find. That is probably one of the greatest proverbs ever. How many of us truly know what exactly that means. Not many I would wager. I’ll use myself as the perfect example in this. I’ve read it many times, nodded my head like I had a clue as to what that actually means.  So today, I sat and thought about it. I am reading a book which really has me thinking a lot deeper than I am comfortable with. After all, staring at myself in the mirror and facing the deep demons inside is enough. Wrong. Lesson number 2, it is an ongoing process.  Our brains, hearts and spirits operate much like a pulley system. Crap out and crap back in. We examine once, pat ourselves on the back and assume we have accomplished betterment. Slow down and think again. Back to my original “seek and you shall find” proverb, which is much like the ramblings I just spewed. We are seeking constantly and finding rarely.

The reason we find so rarely is simple…..we seek the wrong things and ask God to wave a magic wand and our lives will then be perfect. Wakie wakie…not the case.  No one, I repeat, NO ONE will make your problems go away but you. We get angry with God for not responding instantly and fixing our issues. I know, I am guilty of that, especially of recent times. I was angry and spewed acid rather than fervent prayer followed closely deep faith that has always been in my heart. I blamed God for what I didn’t have and where I wasn’t in life. Do you know what I got for all the ulcer and stress I accumulated? Silence. Patient, loving, forgiving silence. Im glad I did such an awesome job at hurting myself physically by lacerating an existing ulcer than practice faith. My faith has not, I repeat, has never lead me astray. I have let myself down not practicing what it is I have been preaching (lack of better wording).  I assume that everything will be done when I want it. Ha!! Last time I checked God gave his son to us to serve, not to be served. However, he was not a waiter.

So, our issue as a humanity is that we have no clue what we seek and then get upset when we don’t wake up after a prayer with a 100.000 dollar car in the driveway or millions in the bank.  We are all instruments in one great plan. It is not all about me!! The quicker we open our eyes and listen, the better we become. When John the Baptist introduced Christ as “The Lamb of God, come to take the sins of the world away” . …his 2 disciples followed Christ out of the Jordan and as Jesus turned around he asked them..”What do you seek?”. The question goes as far back as Christ. We had had so long to read it, study it and still we come up empty. Why? I am a firm believer it is because we no longer think with our hearts. We think with our human fallacies. We pray to get things. We never ask for simple guidance. We come across as “give me give me give me”….funny how when our children have the very same attitude towards us we tell them they have been attacked by the green eyed monster. Yet, we as adults practicing the same thing somehow have a right to. Odd, don’t you think?

So the proverb “seek and you shall find”…. Is such a simple and complex question all rolled into one. So, begin at the beginning. When we seek knowledge or a better understanding of a topic, we research be it in books, online, whatever the avenue is. So, if we seek spiritual guidance and a deeper understanding of faith, why do we not turn to the person that can teach us and more so, why do we not listen with our hearts instead of our minds and allow our logical side to take over? That is a question I still ponder and wish to learn more about. That act requires re-examination in the mirror and I do not like what I see.

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