Paths

A heart divided is always something very difficult to handle and deal with. How does one move on when they can’t decide which path to take? You stand at the fork in the road. One path has your heart as it is and it has been the one road you have been on. It is what’s comfortable to you; however, it also has been never ending. No resolution has ever come forth. It is the path of blind faith, the road that harbors confusion and mistrust. However, it is also the road that you have been on. So, what is the problem you ask? The other path that has newly appeared is a clearer picture, no fog, no mist and you can see the road ahead.  So, which path does one chose in this case?

This is the typical question most people find themselves struggling with. It happens every day and everywhere that one looks. There is always a part of us that wants the guaranteed easy road, no drama or issues. But then one must wonder if the hardest road reaps the greater reward. Some decisions are easier than others to make when one can do so rationally; however, when the wretched organ gets involved no decision seems easy or clear. We start making our own mental scenarios and as humans we tend to make for the absolute worst case scenario that we can. It is called self sabotage. You go for something that you know deep down will not work for the simple fact that it is safe.

So, as I find myself standing there at the fork in the road…struggling with which path to take I pause and think. Thinking has never done the heart any good. Love is irrational and the brains main job is to be rational. So, what does one do in the face of these odds? I walked away and pulled myself into seclusion to have the opportunity to think really hard about the path I am willing to take. There are times when both choices can be very good for you and only differentiate in small ways. Unfortunately it is also dependant on one’s true heart.

I know deep down I have made my choice. It is a fact I can’t deny and therefore will move forward. Like many choices we have in life, the one that loses out is almost always in need of grieving. When the choices we make have life altering outcomes one must be careful and take the appropriate time to grieve before moving on. The decision one makes also must have a solid feeling in ones heart. This morning it dawned on me that I have made the decision and clearly so. I have not as yet come to terms with it, but very quickly approaching that level. I can only hope that my decision is reciprocated in like. My heart never lies and its instinct is on. I am ready to make the jump in blind faith. It is a decision I never thought I could make or make now….but it truly has come to me.

There are times in my life I would have picked the easier road simply because it is easier, but now I chose it because it is the one that speaks to my heart. The one my heart is clearly wrapped around and feels a sense of peace with. Although it is a very challenging if not impossible decision to make, I have found that your heart does truly know what is best for you. Follow it…blindly if you have to and know that the other side isn’t always bad…..just different.