It has truly been a long time since I have posted anything. A little too long for my own liking, however, I encountered some obstacles in life which unfortunately at that time took priority. It forced me to really look at myself over and over again and I still found I have issues in the strength that is faith. I have stayed away and kicked and screamed and even hit depression for a time. However, I have come out of it completely and find myself staring at a new person in the mirror. While I start to write again, I will most certainly go into the little lessons in life that I have learned, some easier than others while some make hiking the Himalaya’s seem an easy task.

In the meantime I wanted to post some prayers, thoughts and strength building words I have read or seen in various places. This blog will take a completely different route in writing, but I will still be bluntly honest. As I know I have repeated constantly, love and pain go hand in hand at times.

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