Price Tags


Do the ones you love carry a price tag? If so, what is it? How much are you worth to another person who claims to love you unconditionally and selflessly? I believe we need to look at how much we are worth to ourselves. This is not a point about a self esteem. I am asking how much are you worth as a person and who are you? My price is death. Yes, death. I am not priceless but a man who claims to love me must be willing to die for me without hesitation. It is not a steep price to pay considering I would do so in return without hesitation. Why? Not because I am crazy or have lost my mental faculties, but simply because if you truly love someone you must love them more than yourself. As Christ came down to serve, not be served we should take example and serve ourselves. The Father loves us mercifully with compassion and understanding. Why can we not love each other in very much the same way?

We cannot because we all have a price tag. How much we are worth and how much are we willing to pay to gain another?  In love, I am willing to pay nothing. Yes that’s true. Nothing. I am not materialistic and my strong belief is that to be loved and to love does not carry a price tag. Not in materialistic ways. We must give of ourselves, and sacrifice for the other. Sometimes that sacrifice comes with pain and heartache. The old adage of if you love someone you must be willing to let them go…if they come back they were meant to be yours. I must admit that in my current situation, typing that sentence has opened my eyes profoundly to something going on in my own life. My love, I have let go numerous times and like the dove carrying the olive branch of hope to Noah, my love came back. It seemed to be annoyingly ever present. The things you want to run from and block with all your might are those that come back over and over again to haunt your dreams.

I am so beyond rational thinking and so in love that I am willing to lay down my life and self completely for this person’s happiness. It doesn’t matter to me whether his happiness is with me or any other.  I pray that he can open his heart and find the courage to pursue his heart’s desire. Life truly has no meaning without love. When it touches you to the depths of your soul it changes you profoundly. I am happy that my own heart’s desire has found his footing and found the courage to pursue his passion in life.

There are no price tags in my world and the only people I allow in it, with access to my heart are those with the same faith and belief. I have compassion and love for humans in general, but my compassion runs to the depths of my soul. I have found peace and contentment in my heart basking at God’s feet. The course of human nature opens and guides our hearts, but it is not perfect, it does not give one peace and it is by far not selfless.

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