Return from the Proverbial War Front

As I sit here tonight I am left wondering how I got to this place I am in. My life has had so many changes in the last couple of years that I am left in shock as to the whirlwind I am caught in.

As I have stated many times previously…..love is patient….and it truly is. I will say this….patience can be ever so trying that it truly makes you want to second guess everything you have done or plan to do and whether or not the “love” is true and worth it. It is one of the most difficult battles between heart and mind one can ever face. I have also learned though this ordeal that to truly know who is the right person for you, you must go through pain, sorrow and downright misery. If that same person is still the one holding your hand through this dark tunnel and he or she is a beaten as you are when you come out at the other end…..hold onto them for dear life and never ever let go.

That is where I have found myself after these love games and adventures. It was not a very easy battle for me to go through and there were times when I stopped and closed my eyes wondering if this is all truly worth it. Is pain really necessary to know love? Is sorrow a necessity for joy? I can whole heartedly tell you YES! It is all necessary in order to truly understand and experience what that strongest and purest of all emotion is. After all, how else would you know if the love professed is worth it?


Let the adventures begin in the next few posts and I will go through every one aspect I mentioned and more. It is a learning experience I find very meaningful in all aspects. 

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