Introduction
Love....hopes. It is the olive leaf ----evidence of dry land after a flood. Proof to the dreamer that dreaming is worth the risk.
This is one of my most favorite sayings...motto...whatever one would call it. I never really got it because I never understood the meaning of the word love or hope. Yeah sure, Websters, gives you a pretty good definition..but does Websters truly understand ones heart, mind, soul and the inner person.
When I say love I dont equate it to the romantic kind that makes one go gaga. Love is much more complex and involved. Its complicated...and well it should be. What comes easy goes easy.....therefore if love were simple it wouldnt be love. The deepest relationships I have ever read about or seen or experienced were built on a strong foundation or pain, disappointment and fear. Yes, all of the above. I truly believe that to understand and accept one fully...one needs to truly understand ones own heart and know who they are. When you can not be true to yourself and your heart...look in the mirror and not cringe at yourself then can you be open to love. My meaning here is not just romantic but deeper, more spiritual.
It took me almost a year to come to terms with myself and who I truly am and let me say...the grass is not greener on the other side. What I did learn and gain is better understanding of me and my own self. To go with one of my favorite authors....love and pain go hand in hand. Truer words were never spoken. I get it now but was oblivious to it before. One must feel pain and heart wrench to be able to give selfless love. Yes, I said it...selfless. Much easier said than done.
In todays world selfless is a feeling and thought not understood by most. It is unfortunate and yet I have come to accepting that since I can give it selflessly and with compassion very few can grasp and return the same sentiment.
So, now that hopefully people understand my position and views in at least that.....I will tell you what it has gained me. I have gained the opportunity of giving myself and helping others through some very dark places in their lives. It has been a divine gift to them and rather a deeper understanding for me. I have also been given the opportunity to look an angel in the face and compassionately make a decision on their own views. The opportunity to turn a life into something the world needs is truly an immense responsibility begotten from love.
So in short, I know who I am spiritually, soulically and humanly. The point of this blog is to reach out to others and counsel (no clue how I got to this function)...and explore my own many facets. Writing is my cavet of releasing stress. It is the means to my reaching my full potential, reaching out to others and the ability to show multiple personalities without the crazy...please comment all you like....I dont hearing peoples views...they actually help me write.
This is one of my most favorite sayings...motto...whatever one would call it. I never really got it because I never understood the meaning of the word love or hope. Yeah sure, Websters, gives you a pretty good definition..but does Websters truly understand ones heart, mind, soul and the inner person.
When I say love I dont equate it to the romantic kind that makes one go gaga. Love is much more complex and involved. Its complicated...and well it should be. What comes easy goes easy.....therefore if love were simple it wouldnt be love. The deepest relationships I have ever read about or seen or experienced were built on a strong foundation or pain, disappointment and fear. Yes, all of the above. I truly believe that to understand and accept one fully...one needs to truly understand ones own heart and know who they are. When you can not be true to yourself and your heart...look in the mirror and not cringe at yourself then can you be open to love. My meaning here is not just romantic but deeper, more spiritual.
It took me almost a year to come to terms with myself and who I truly am and let me say...the grass is not greener on the other side. What I did learn and gain is better understanding of me and my own self. To go with one of my favorite authors....love and pain go hand in hand. Truer words were never spoken. I get it now but was oblivious to it before. One must feel pain and heart wrench to be able to give selfless love. Yes, I said it...selfless. Much easier said than done.
In todays world selfless is a feeling and thought not understood by most. It is unfortunate and yet I have come to accepting that since I can give it selflessly and with compassion very few can grasp and return the same sentiment.
So, now that hopefully people understand my position and views in at least that.....I will tell you what it has gained me. I have gained the opportunity of giving myself and helping others through some very dark places in their lives. It has been a divine gift to them and rather a deeper understanding for me. I have also been given the opportunity to look an angel in the face and compassionately make a decision on their own views. The opportunity to turn a life into something the world needs is truly an immense responsibility begotten from love.
So in short, I know who I am spiritually, soulically and humanly. The point of this blog is to reach out to others and counsel (no clue how I got to this function)...and explore my own many facets. Writing is my cavet of releasing stress. It is the means to my reaching my full potential, reaching out to others and the ability to show multiple personalities without the crazy...please comment all you like....I dont hearing peoples views...they actually help me write.
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So in essence and most simplest form....I have loved and lost of my own free will. Pain and disappointment is immeasurable, however, my heart was never mine to give freely and that acceptance is my comfort.
My understanding is primarily from a long past of disappointment and loss. It brought me to my knees and put me in a very dark place. After some self pity....I had some sense knocked into me and began to see the light on the horizon.
The best way I can explain it is as such...a friend of mine told me I am their hero. I laughed. Their explanation to me was as follows: most people's hardships in life are worth a glass, at most, a pitcher of ice cubes. My past is the iceberg that sunk the Titanic. That being said....the higher the pain and suffering the more compassion and self awareness one developes.
Hope that makes sense.
Thank you by the way. And feel free to suggest or ask questions or opinions on this site. Its my release/outlet and hope it makes others at least curious in their own journey.
But in all seriousness, life is intertwined in all its emotions and glory from love, loss, pain, happiness, joy and sorrow....unfortunately most dont understand that they go hand in hand. One must expose themselves to both in order to understand themselves and their own feelings in their entirety.
If you dont mind I would love to email you personally and talk to you...maybe even get some advice from you in my situation. Thank you and God bless!